I don't know how many of you read this, but I forgot to let you know that another chapter of Maybe It Could Work went up around a month ago. If you like Selphie/Squall stuff, go read it. :P

Well, I'm kind of working on a WoW fanfic because it's been on my mind for a while. X( .... I couldn't help myself. Every time I see my characters on my account, it makes me want to make up stories about them and my imagination goes wild. Itches that needed to be scratched. It might be the next thing to get out once I finish the last two chapters of Bedlam and Vertigo.

Anyway, I'm only here to deliver a snippet of random writings; of nothing, to be more precise. I'll need a new Memories category for these things. I need to keep my entries here organized.

This doesn't have a real title, but I'll give it a tentative one, I guess, even though it's not part of any story I've written. I've had it lying around for a while, but I never had a place to put it.

Well, anyway, I'll call it "I Love You."

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"Ready to go home?" he asked me, pulling his shirt over his head.

I stared at him wordlessly for a few seconds before I finished buttoning up my blouse. ".... Yeah."

He has no clue.

He stood up from the edge of his bed and crossed to his desk, where his car keys were sitting. "Well, let's go," he announced, his voice holding a mere hint of satisfaction.

I followed him out of his bedroom, staring at his broad back as we left his apartment. My eyes bore into him, my eyes asking questions. My heart wondering. I wanted to know. I wanted to hope.

But he really does have no clue.

He unlocked the car. I opened the door to the passenger side and went in, closing the door quietly.

As he settled himself into the driver's seat, he glanced at me. "What's up?" he piped up, instigating small talk. "You're quiet."

"Hm," was all I said.

"Tired? We were at it for a while." He laughed.

I looked down at my hands. Maybe I really am just a sex toy to him.

How our fast friendship came to this, I wasn't sure. Maybe because I was comfortable around him. I trusted him. I cared about him greatly.

I was falling for him.

But maybe I'm expecting too much if I wanted us to go from that gray area between friends and couple to full-fledged relationship. God, if only. I don't even know if he values our friendship the same way or degree that I do.

Perhaps I was nothing.

I suddenly felt his hand on my head, patting me gently. I turned my head toward him. He hasn't left the parking lot yet. I couldn't read his expression; I never could. Was he happy? Was he concerned? Even if he was concerned, he would never show me. He's seen me cry, scream, lose my temper... but I have never seen him do the same. He always has the same kind of enthusiasm when he saw me, when he fucked me, even.

"What's up?" he asked again, more firmly this time, as if he wanted a straight answer out of me.

I wonder if he even cared.

"Nothing," I answered wanely. "Sleepy."

I didn't joke around that time. Why? Because I could feel myself falling deeper and deeper every time I felt him against me.

It was hurting me.

"Hah." He sounded smug.

Can I buy you a clue?

He finally began the drive back to my place. It was a quiet ride, but neither of us usually minded. Our silences were comfortable.

When he pulled up to my apartment complex, I finally decided to speak up. "Hug?" I requested quietly, glancing at him.

He smirked. "All right."

We shared an awkward driver-passenger hug. My heart ached.

"How about a kiss?" I dared myself to ask, not letting go.

He pulled back slightly. "Too lazy," he responded, the smirk still there.

What was that supposed to mean?

My heart sinking, I chuckled jokingly and stepped out of his car.

"See you later," he told me through the open door, smiling and waving.

I smiled, too. His was contagious to me. "Yeah..."

I watched him speed off, immediately feeling lonely.

I love you.

Gah, I don't even know who reads this anymore, since it's been more than a year.  O_o I don't think I even have many readers for this journal, but.... oh, well. I'd rather have this updated than have it die.


Chapter IX: Move Along, Move Along Like I Know You Do synopsis:

After a devastating tragedy, some were left with drastically changing personalities, but it won't go unnoticed by others. How will Squall and Selphie's relationship fare in the light of these events? How will everyone handle a secret that has been kept for so long?

Dun-dun-dun.

Yeah, so if you're a reader, go read the new chapter. Go go go go go. XD

... out of curiosity, and since I want something to do, I request that you guys link me to a piece of writing (something I can read online, at that) that has made you cry or very emotional. Fanfic, poem, original story, lyrics... whatever. Anything will do.

I'll even go first.

The lyrics of Condition of my Heart by Justin Guarini ... or the Korean ones by Fly to the Sky (but I don't know Korean, so...).

I can't even explain it, but the lyrics just really hit home for me. I don't even completely feel the same way as the person in the words does, but it's something I know I'd want to feel... I guess. Do I make any sense at all? If not, it's fine. I don't care.

And yeah, I know... Justin Guarini. But he pulled off the song pretty well, in my opinion. The song made me like him a little more.

Remember me? XD

Yeah, sorry about the absence from FF.Net, but I'll have to use the "life" excuse again. A lot of things happened over the summer and the fall, and those events definitely distracted me from other things I should be doing, like finishing these stories I've had forever.

Anyway, I opened my Bedlam and Vertigo file again, and it looks like I'm not hit by writer's block anymore. I don't know how much I'll get done or if I'll even finish this chapter anytime soon (especially since I have a midterm tomorrow...), but we'll see.

As for Maybe It Could Work, I've written some, but my percentage of finished-ness hasn't increased all that much from the last time I talked about it (40%, I believe). It's more like 41% done now. -_- ... I'll work on that.

I think I'm on a roll with MICW. I think I'm about 40% done with the next chapter already. That's pretty fast for someone like me.

Anyway, I posted something on deviantART. It's something that's probably not as well-written as my regular fanfics, hence it's not posted on FF.Net. Hell, it's not even well-written (in my opinion) enough to be a regular deviation. Therefore, I've put it under my Scraps category.

The story stems from me and my good friend Jenn's random conversation about Sephiroth's one wing. I don't know what we were on, but the story is sort of what we came up with. We then got Jessica involved, intent on making her make a little comic of it. But in order for her to do that, we thought it'd be good to put it in story form.



So here it is.



:D

Okay, so I finished and posted Maybe It Could Work's latest chapter. FINALLY. For those of you who don't know what the hell I'm talking about, MICW is my alternate pairing (Squall/Selphie) Final Fantasy VIII fanfic. It's long and will get even longer because I'm nowhere close to being done.

Chapter synopsis:

It's time for the SeeD field exam at Balamb Garden, but there's one or two things up our heroes' enemies' sleeves. It may end disastrously. However, there are other problems. Rinoa and Squall have to face reality and stop keeping secrets to themselves, even if the reactions of their loved ones will not be pleasant.

CLICK HERE FOR THE NEW CHAPTER!

Heh.

I have this biiiig idea for a Final Fantasy type thing.

Why?

.... Because I have no life...

I've listed and decribed characters and drew and colored in a world map. I've given the characters weapons and limit breaks. I've thought up sidequests and backgrounds stories for the locations.

So what am I going to do with it?

There's the possibility of making a huge fanfic, but there are so many unfinished fanfics that I have that I've been putting off other ideas I've had. I could make this into a hugeass Gaia RP, but I don't even have a basic storyline, which I guess could go with the problems of making it a fanfic.

I think I'll just wait on it until I think of something. Bleh.

I'll post about it in the near future. ^^

[ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] I can do my own laundry
[x... kind of] I can cook for myself
[ ] I do my chores after being told once
[ ] I always do my homework/work
[ ] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[ ] I think politics are exciting
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers

total: 2

[ ] I show up for school/work every day unless I'm sick
[ ] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[x] I've never gotten a ticket
[ ] I watch talk shows and point out the incredibility of it all
[x] I know what incredibility means without looking it up
[ ] I drink black coffee

total: 2

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and/or do the dishes
[x] I can count in more than one language
[x] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.
[ ] I mow the lawn
[ ] I wash my car
[ ] I can make adults laugh..without being stupid
[ ] I remember to water my plants
[x] I study when I have to
[x] I pay attention at school/work
[ ] I remember to feed my pets.
[x] I'm generally organized
[x] I know the meaning of capital punishment

total: 7

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up
[x] I clean up my own messes
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
[ ] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need
[ ] I understand jokes the first time they are said
[x... most of the time] I listen to my elders
[x] I understand the fact that the world always screws someone over
[x] I can type fast

total: 5

[ ] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like it
[ ] I can watch politics and laugh
[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ]I can read a book and actually finish it.
[ ] People have said that I act older than I am
[x] I can be sent on an errand and not get side tracked

total: 3

Now add up how many x's you have and put i actually am __ years old.

I am actually 19 years old?.... k.

About time, huh? =P

Anyway, if you don't know Carmina Burana, the fanfic, it's basically an alternate universe epic fantasy. The fanfic is a collaboration with me and my good friend, whose penname is Aeris Tiniel Mirime. The fic is a crossover of Fushigi Yuugi and Cardcaptors. Don't ask why we used the dub version rather than the original (Cardcaptor Sakura), because I don't know myself. ^^; It also consists of canon, crossover, alternate, and unconventional pairings. Aeris is Sakura+Yukito/Syaoran+Meiling while I'm Sakura+Syaoran. =P

Why Carmina Burana? Well, wayyy back when we were still freshmen in high school (in like 2001!!), we came upon Carmina Burana the composition by Carl Orff, which is the music her sister was playing in band at the time. We were on the band trip, listening to the sister's band performing, and we were like, "Hm... what does this part make you think of?"

So, you know those visualizations you get in your head when you listen to classical music? That's what the story is, or trying to be. XD

I just posted Chapter IX of Carmina Burana on FF.Net. FINALLY. Enjoy! Even though I assume that there aren't that many readers... I don't get a lot of reviews for this one. O_o

Chapter synopsis:

Some group up for a cause, some are separated from each other, and some are brewing plans of devastating action. The once peaceful kingdoms of Summit and Enigma are starting to build inner tension and distrust toward each other. Li somewhat catches this hint from the mysterious Layla and is bent on saving the kingdoms from doing anything drastic. In order to do so, he must seek help, but where does he start?

CLICK HERE TO READ THE CHAPTER!

Konnichiwa, minna-san. Genki? Watashi no haru yasumi da yo! Hello, everybody. How are you? It's my spring break!

Well, anyway, I finally updated one of my stories after like... a year or two of being "on hiatus." It's my angsty Tasuki/Miaka Fushigi Yuugi story, Bedlam and Vertigo. By the way, it's rated T or M-ish... I couldn't really decide which. But on FF.net, it's M, just to be safe. ^^;

Chapter synopsis:

It's a time for grieving for people other than Miaka, but she has yet to completely return to her normal self. Tasuki is there to comfort her the best he can, but will she let him get closer than he already is? Meanwhile, we get some more insight on Kurai's thoughts.

Click here for the new chapter!

1. Who was your first love?
My Chris.... and he still is my first love~

2. Who was your first kiss and when?
My Chris at 19 years old.

3. Who was your first prom date?
Didn't go to prom XD

4. Who was your first room mate?
Debbie when we were at UTSA

5. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?
Vodka... and I wasn't really that drunk.... ¬_¬

7. What was your first job?
NONE! D=

8. What was your first car?
1999 Mercury Tracer

9.When did you go to your first funeral?
7 years old, for my grandmother's funeral.

10. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
Uhh.... I moved around a bunch of times when I was really young, so I'm not really sure.

11. Who was your first grade teacher?
Ms. Poteet. ~_~ What a mean ol' bitch.

12. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
San Francisco, I think.

13. Where did you go for your first date and who was it with?
Movies with my Chris <3

14. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with it?
I don't think I've ever snuck out of my house. XD We had that damn security alarm shit.

15. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
Robyn Soto was my first best friend. And I was a bitch so I stopped being friends with her after kindergarten. ^^;

16. Who was the first person to send you flowers?
Uh... Derek gave me flowers for my birthday once... O_o

17. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents house?
Chisholm Hall @ UTSA! XDDD But it's not really moving out because I still live in my house when I'm in Houston. ^^;;

18. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
My baby.

19. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?
NONE.

20. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
Brush my teeth... either that or go back to sleep and if I do that... I end up oversleeping and missing some classes. =(

What's uuuup. XD

To make up for my lack of entries here, I'm going to post some old stories that would've not been accepted into Fanfiction.net. I say that because they HAVE been on there before, but they got removed due to FF.Net's changing standards at the time. =( But here is FF.Net reject story number two, which is a Backstreet Boys fanfic. YES, a Backstreet Boys fanfic crossed over with Resident Evil (the games, of course). Hey, at least I don't write fangirl Mary Sue celeb fics... ¬_¬

Disclaimer: Backstreet Boys obviously don't belong to anyone. Also I'm in no way affiliated with them. Resident Evil and its creatures, settings, etc. don't belong to me and stuff. The only thing I own here is my story.

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( Rated PG-15ish )

... I'm a college student with extracurricular activities and a life outside of fanfiction.

Sorry for the wait, but I've gotten some of the new chapter of Bedlam and Vertigo done, so hopefully I have t3h writing skillz to finish it within a month or two.

As for Maybe It Could Work... whoo boy, I barely remember where I wanted the plot to go. But don't worry, I'll think of something. =) I feel that it's becoming very Rinoa-centered, and I wanted it to be about Squall and Selphie, but... well, we'll see. ^^;

I just sent Caroline the chapter of Carmina Burana I couldn't finish, and hopefully she'll think of something because it's been a couple (A COUPLE!) of years since we updated that story. Go go Caro-chan!

YOOOOSHI!!!! I'MA WORK HARD! HAI! IKIMASHOU!

A/N: So once upon a time, this fic (and its sequels) was on Fanfiction.net. But then the evil site mods or whatever decided to take away all the chatfics since they didn't have a "real" story involved... or something like that. =( So then it was like, "Oh noes, what do I dooozzz?? Where will this beloved story go??"

So it's back for you're enjoyment, untouched and unedited. ^^v

And just a warning. Since this is a chatroom fanfic and all, the grammatical/spelling errors you'll find in the story are most likely made on purpose. Plus, there are some Tasuki/Miaka tendencies... you don't mind, do you? XD Also, this fic is A/U.... obviously.

And another thing: I wrote this a loooong time ago. I was maybe... 15? (I'm 20 now), so my writing style has kinda changed over the years. ^^;

Disclaimer: Fushigi Yuugi and its characters don't belong to me. The only thing I own is the story.

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( Rated PG-ish )

Sorry that it wasn't very pretty and spruced up with HTML and stuff, but I'm far too lazy right now to do that shit. =P